I took Ada to her Pre-K (she won’t let me call it preschool) Open House this morning, we took her book bag full of supplies, and spent the morning in her room getting a feel for the schedule there.
I’ve never been sad the first day of school… in fact, it’s quite the opposite. I was celebrating 2 weeks ago when Grace and Eli started. This will be Ada’s third year of preschool, and I’ve never been sad.
Today I was sad.
I’ve had more one-on-one time with Ada than the other 2 combined. I guess that’s what happens when the first two are only 11 months apart. We’ll still be together in the afternoons, or at least the 2 that I don’t work. Maybe that’s the difference. I’ve worked more than I did before, and now I feel like I missed out on even more time. Did I do it right? Have I screwed this all up? I know I needed to work for my own sanity, possibly for my children’s safety, but I do know that I needed that. I know it in my head. My heart is telling a different story this morning. Ada and I are so much alike, and I get along with her better than I do the other two. Just being honest here. She’s my little buddy. She loves running errands with me, and when we get home she just wants to play by herself. Does it get any better??
My little Ada Potato. Woman. Lady. Ada Bug.
Holy moly Janna, you made me cry here at in my office by myself…I think you've summed it up perfectly by not being able to really pin down at all…my heart feels the same way. About the work. About my youngest. My head and my heart are full.
Beautifully expressed. I can only imagine the moms you've touched through this.
You are so honest. I love that about you!! This is a great post!! Linda Barnes
I'm already getting sad about Ian being nearly 2. I just want the time to stop. You are amazing. That one on one time is incredible and powerful. I don't really know what else to say, but I will hug you when I see you. 🙂