I didn’t know there was going to be a Part 2…

After I wrote what turned out to be Part 1, I went to bed and just laid there.  I laid there and I started talking to God.  It wasn’t like a formal, “Dear Lord” kind of a prayer, I just started talking to Him.  I told Him how I really wanted to do something for the Bucks, but I didn’t know what.  There was nothing I could do.  At least not today.  And I hated that.  I hated that I couldn’t do anything.  I hated that I couldn’t hug them.  I hated that I couldn’t see them.  I hated that I couldn’t make them feel better.  I hated that I couldn’t take this pain away.  I hated that I couldn’t heal him.  I hated that I couldn’t control ANY PART OF THIS.  I couldn’t do anything.  And that was when I realized.  The only thing, the main thing, the most important thing I need to do right now is surrender.  I can’t fix this.  But Jesus can.  I don’t know if He will or not, but even if He doesn’t, I will still trust Him and love Him and praise Him.

• Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

• I keep my eyes always on the Lord.  With Him at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Psalm 16:8

• You, Lord, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light.  With Your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall.  As for God, His way is perfect: the Lord’s Word is flawless; He shields all who take refuge in Him.  For who is God besides the Lord?  And who is the Rock except our God? Psalm 18:28-31